I wandered back to Blogger today after taking a long break (even though I told myself that I wouldn't take breaks) and I realized that I have several posts that are only half finished. I don't think that I'm going to finish most of them because by now the urge that I had when I started them has either dissipated or the information is completely irrelevant. Although, I'm having a very hard time convincing myself to actually delete the drafts. I wanted to make this small post to at least say that writing is not easy. This isn't a, "boo-hoo I'm so busy" post but it is an attempt to kick start my brain into getting used to writing more. I have two large hurdles in my mind when it comes to posting here. One of them is criticism and the other is finding information that I think is worthy of sharing.
My fear of criticism isn't what you would probably think of at first glance; I feel like the general public looks at a blog as a narcissistic action. Sort of like standing on the tallest mountain and saying, "I have really interesting things to say look at me." My fear of criticism isn't an aversion to people disagreeing with my subject but that they would assume that I'm doing this because I believe that I'm smarter than them. Deep inside, I know that there are so many things that I don't understand and I want to explore them all which is part of why I want to have a blog. Criticism is something that always comes with putting yourself out there and I realize that no matter what you do in public (the internet is definitely public) you'll attract people over time and some of those people with poke holes in your thoughts, I think that is awesome! This brings me to my second goal in maintaining a blog: I want to learn and share what I've learned. If you have an alternate view on anything that I say please let me know, I welcome all feedback.
I realize that creating interesting content is part of why I want to write to begin with; I want to get better at writing and the only way to accomplish that is to actually write. So, here I am, writing about writing.